Not sure how to discern what is the ego and what is a message from an angel

[carolina]

Hi,

So happy to find this forum!

I am a Deeksha-giver (initiated three times in India) and know what it feels like to touch the face of God. I went to India to be able to give back what was given to me when the touch of a Deeksha-giver's hands healed me from continual headaches and migraines three times a week that I suffered for nearly ten years. Doctors told me I would only get worse (neck injury caused this and too many discs were involved to operate) and were unable to help me, but after one touch from a woman who looked like a librarian, the next morning I woke up without a headache for the first time in nine and a half years. That was three years ago. This is not a commercial for Deeksha (they call it "Oneness Blessing" now) - so many healers can do the same thing. However, India gave me to courage to question experiences I had for many years, when voices and "angels" (they or it said) came to guide me. Some of the guidance felt right, but some of it was so bizarre that I was afraid - if that part of the experience with the angels was untrue, must I dump the whole experience? 

My question is this: I have had several miracles happen that I consider real - being helped to get my car to the side of the freeway when the man driving it slumped over the wheel, unconscious (I was on the passenger's side - he was doing 70 miles an hour but somehow I calmly got it over to the shoulder where it slowed enough for me to use the hand brake); having a child when doctors swore I was infertile; things that happened to me in India. But with the inner voices guidance, how can you tell if it is just the ego fighting for its existence or real angelic guidance? The guidance I got from the "trickster" I now consider the ego was often quite good, though much of it was BS.

Thanks much for the time you took to read this 

Puzzled 

[faith777]

Hi Carolina,

Welcome and I am happy you are here!  I am very interested in learning about Deeksha-giver healers since I am not familar with this type of healing.  Would you post more information on this?  It must have been a beautiful experience to receive this miraculous healing for your headaches after coping with the pain for many years.  A true blessing from God.

I hope I can help a little with you question and strongly encourage you to not "dump" your experiences with angels.  I believe your ego or other entities gave you the bizare feeling which caused fear.  Angels have a strong, loving energy and will never give messages which create fear-based emotions.  If you become afraid or fear for your safety, be assured these messages are not from your angels.  I will surround myself with violet light and ask Archangel Michael for protection prior to requesting guidance or insight.

I hope this helps and I look forward to getting to know you.

Love, Ann

[Dyan]

Hi Carolina and Ann. Carolina it's nice to have you join us and thank you for sharing your experiences. Very interesting. I was not aware of this healing modality either. Anything more you can tell us is greatly appreciaed. And great answer, Ann. Very true.

There is so much to say about lessons of discernment. When we're open to guidance, we become an open frequency. It's an open channel. Like a radio, we can turn it on and then tune it in. How do you know you're on the right station? There isn't any static. In other words, there is no misinformation. It's clear, loving guidance. There is no fear involved. There is nothing bizarre that happens. Truth has its own distinct frequency. It is unmistakable.

There are a lot of beings out there, both incarnate and disincarnate. Sometimes just because they know you can hear and see them, they try to get your attention. Some are pranksters, some want attention and validation, some try to get their own messages through. Some just are lonely. I've noticed that with disincarnate beings that have their own agenda, they will wrap misinformation up around messages of truth. I can think of one very well known book in which this was done. You're reading and going along and thinking, yes, yes, yes. Then all of a sudden there is something that doesn't quite ring true, but you keep reading anyway. Then you find more and more untruths wrapped in there. Quite frankly, to this day, I view this book not as what it was purported to be, but rather an excellent lesson in discernment for all.

So, what you're experiencing is kind of like that. It's an excellent lesson in learning to channel the truth. There isn't anything to be fearful of, however, as you are in control of the radio dial at all times. Angelic guidance vibrates at a certain frequency and you will come to know that frequency without any doubt. It's strong, clear, and very loving. If something feels wrong to you, it is.

I do also find as well, that people that are beginning to channel and receive messages will also receive some sort of vibrational signal right before the messages come through. For some it could be a distinct change in temperature, for others it's something else, like the vision of a nice soft blanket wrapped lightly around them...etc, etc. Watch for your signal. You can also ask these beings for their name and to state their purpose in coming to you. You will know by the vibration of their name and their statement of purpose whether or not they are from the angelic realms. I hope that helps.

[carolina]

Hi Dyan and Ann,

I will post more later. Thanks so much for your help!

Information about Deeksha (Oneness Blessing) can be found at https://www.onenessnorthamerica.org/index.cfm?

Namaste,

Carolina

Here is the story I tried to post but was timed out:

Hi Voices of the Angels,

I had to create this in WORD and copy & paste because I timed out last time.
My experience with angelic beings (or something) started in 1996 when a major catastrophe left me destitute with my young son to raise (his father committed a crime/the police went after me as well – eventually this got sorted out but it was a nightmare). I had scant assistance to do this so I was hanging on by my fingernails. I put one foot in front of the other, but a cold, clinical part of me planned my suicide. It was like I was on two tracks – one desperately trying to keep everything going and the other with a specific, detailed plan to end my life. I knew this would destroy my son, no matter how (and the plan included this) I managed to get him cared for by relatives and one day when the cold part was in command, I shouted “help!” inside.
Once I did that, a voice, as clear as if someone were in the room with me (there was no one there and my son was with friends) said, “FINALLY she’s asking for help. Well, since you have asked I’m here to help you but let me give you the deal first.”
GULP! (I have a Ph.D. in social psychology – was working in research, not faculty – and was very aware of the code for “auditory hallucinations” of the DSM that would brand me crazy and what would that do to my son??). “Uh, what deal?”
“One, you don’t have to hear us if you don’t want to. Two, we don’t interfere with thought process. Three, if you want help and we tell you what we recommend, it is only a recommendation – we don’t interfere with free will. So. Do you want a recommendation?”
“Uh. Okay.” (I was thinking maybe this was my deceased older brother trying to help me out so I went along with it).
“Okay. First, I want you to paint your nails.”
“WHAT!!”
“Yeah. And choose something vivid, no pastel crap. Oh – and I want you to dye your hair. And get some bubble bath, something girly, like roses or lavender or stuff like that.”
“Okkaaayyyyyyyy. When do I do this.”
“Right now.”
So I found myself walking down to the market with this voice in my ear chattering away, advising me on what to get. Once I’d dyed my hair (I was 44 and had let it do whatever it wanted to) light auburn, taken a bath (the voice assured me they respected privacy) and was doing my nails (dark red) I noticed that my mood had completely shifted. The voice had done what I would have advised anyone who was depressed to do – get my body moving and become engaged in self-nurturing behavior.
So I thought it was my “higher self.” It said “No.” I asked if it was my brother. It said “No.” I asked if it was just a part of me. Most definitely no. I asked if it was an angel and it would not answer that one, though it did say it wasn’t a demon and it wasn’t some dead guy. It said we were “bonded.”
What followed was quite a magical two months where it was like having a dear, close friend nearby all the time. It helped me with my son, helped me at work, and at night when I habitually had trouble sleeping and would shake, it wrapped me with its wings. When it did this (though not claiming angelic status) I felt the same electric buzz you get from being near a Van de Graff generator. I used to call it the “angel tingle” – it happened when one of their light bodies got too close to my dense matter body.
All well and good, however this changed. After a couple of months, the “being” claimed to be the “upstairs self” of an actor.
I so did NOT want to hear this. It was completely crazy-making for several years, back and forth. Circumstances put me in touch with a friend of the actor and I got invited to a party where he would be but I backed off. I did not want to know the truth at that time because the rest of the experience (with the other “beings”) was so magic and helpful. This situation continued for years until two weeks ago when after re-reading Tolle, I decided that it was all just the ego fighting for its existence, making up stuff to entrance me and keep me from awakening. I was ready to dump the whole experience because I’d had awakening experiences in India and after the “Deepening” and I knew that was where I wanted to go.
However, I missed my “friends” (even the troublesome one). Some folks advised me to just weigh and measure what I got from them. Others said ditch it.
One thing I did not know until a year after the first “being” appeared – a dear friend housesat for me when I took my son to see his grandfather in Florida at Christmas the same year the experience started. She used a Ouija board in the house while she was there. One year later, I felt an urge to call her and her first words were that she had “burned the Ouija board.” She’d been attacked by demons repeatedly after her stay at my house and is still troubled by them to this day, twelve years later (though less so – she’s been exorcized, had shamans and healers of all kinds try to dislodge this thing that tells her it is in her energy field). Giving her Deeksha has helped her some. I was hoping that if my experience could be chalked up to the ego playing tricks this might also help her.
Anyway, that’s my experience.
Thanks much for the help – I am back talking to the one who is with me now, working to sort out things.
Carolina