April – Strange Occurances
Dear Dyan:
One day while walking to the post office a small blonde woman walked up to me and said “You’re an Angel.” I looked at her and said “No, I’m not! The woman said again, “You’re an Angel! I just shrugged it off as this woman was a nut!
Another day I heard a voice loud and clear: “You’re not here to collect things.” Two years ago we lost two homes, but things are getting better. Recently I became a Realtor.
I love to help people and inspiration is one of my gifts that I have to spread across the universe. For the past couple of years I’ve meditated and worked on speaking to my inner person. I’m grateful for all of my life lessons. Everything is a lesson. Forgiveness is an important aspect of my life.
If I don’t give my daughter what she wants then she doesn’t have anything to do with me. It hurts. Stuffing these feelings is easier than dealing with it. My husband and daughter don’t like each other.
I’m torn. On one hand I have the desire to make money so that I’m independent and can do what I want, like travel and see things and new people. On the other hand I feel like I’m being punished for not doing something right.
I have a feeling that these thoughts are from the ego. It’s like nothing is happening. Relief and hope are just around the corner…Life is a beautiful experience. Not sure where I wanted to go!
Thank you for listening.
April
Dear April:
There is a lot here in your letter. Let’s try to get to the root of it. We make choices about what we want to learn here before we even incarnate here. The woman in the Post Office was giving you a message about what you came here to do. It’s good that you know that everything is a lesson, because indeed it is. It’s all a lesson in love. And you know that too because you mention forgiveness as an important aspect in your life.
I encourage you to not continue to stuff your feelings down. This is a good lesson is self-love. It’s just not healthy, and this is where we create disease. Feel your feelings whatever they are. Honor them.
Be clear on what is your issue and what is your daughter’s issue. It appears that she’s in entitlement and uses manipulation. Get to the root of why this may be so. Examine the patterns that are underneath these behaviors. Examine your part in them.
Where inside yourself do you feel you have “failed” and why? In this illusion that we live in, it may seem as if there is “success” and “failure.” However, these are illusions of this world. If you always go to the bigger picture, if you always go to “What is this lesson in love really about?” then you keep yourself moving forward.
Money is an exchange. We get pretty funny about it because in this illusion we’ve ascribed great power to it. Really, it’s pieces of paper fueled by our perceptions of power. The energy that you’re describing is the “not good enough energy.” This energy resides in the 2nd chakra. This is the “birthing” area. When we have blockages here, we find it is challenging to make form manifest – birth our creations.
My advice is to familiarize yourself with the chakra system and in so doing you will be able to get to the root. That’s when you’ll see your life come into alignment and balance. And you will find that you’ll be able to create your life in any way you choose.
My book Money and Manifesting is designed to help you with this. My DVD “Doors To The Soul” is a relaxation DVD that is designed to balance your chakras in about 10 minutes. Blessings to you, Darling. I hope you keep in touch. Please come also to our free spiritual forum. You will find a lot of support and guidance there.
